This is the beginning of another turn of the wheel and if you have been following this blog, you'd know what a year it's been. A brief catch-up:
1). My friend that had the retarded boyfriend with the drugs and the Satan and all: A mutual friend had a great BBQ and invited her and her man. I was really happy to see her and I think she was just as happy to see me. HE, however, would do creepy shit like walk off into the distance and stare at me like I was supposed to speak to him. I had nothing to say. I was just glad she was ok and we were still cool. And really, I had no reason to be mad at her, other than not understanding why'd she'd picked a phlegm like him. But she explained to me that once her dad died, she kinda got depressed and experienced her own form of setback. I could relate. We both had to start back at one in a sense. Who knows what the glue is that keeps people together. I just hope that we can have our friendship back it tact without me having to know or like this guy.
2). Last year at this time I was having a bitter battle with my family and myself about the future. Was living with my grandmother, had no money or job and had the last straw (which is what sent me to my friend's house and her sick boyfriend). Of course, I have to take the blame for that situation cause if I hadn't been in my own fucked mind set, I would've never had to go there at all. But, like everything, there is a reason and the reason was me having to get over them and their problems and focus on my own.
3). I was just terribly unhappy..(see above). More than that, I had no happy people around me to learn from. All I had was people in various states of misery medicating themselves into acceptance and thinking that life is always like this and there's no hope. There was never a shortage of those people around. Even people I thought had it together were operating in misery mode, albeit with more money and things around them.
What a difference a year makes. Work picked up, I live somewhere that I actually enjoy and life is good. I'm going to make a serious effort to write about more uplifting things. I was becoming Queen of the Dammed for a minute, ya know?
Happy Anniversary...
