After what seemed like the most volitile summer I've had since my teen years, I have finally settled into a peaceful existence. I guess I had to hit some nasty bumps to get my shit back on track.
The upside is that I have now what I treasure most and have not had in years...SOLITUDE. If you know someone who can't bear to be alone and goes through all kinds of drama, you should try to gently explain the virtues of solitude. When I was a kid, I used get punished for the tiniest crap (cause my mom was a bitch). But as the years went on, I realized that being alone GOT ME AWAY from all the bitches in the world. Why sit around and listen to yet another neurotic cunt rail on about what she DESERVES when I could turn on my heel, shut the door and finish the 9,000 books that have been sitting in boxes for months.
So there you have it. I should have some real exciting Halloween stories for you and even some sound clips from the Junglistic Halloween Massif @ Karma NYC (if you are a NYC head and likey the Drum and Bass,hit me with a VM andI'll give you the scoop)..
stay tuned and...
Boo!
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The end of the beginning of the end...
The winds of Autumn start to blow and things are dying all over the place. It was a crazy summer. It seemed like I was running from one bad vibe to another. I had more than my share of mental garbage that needed to be thrown out. This season’s lessons have taught me that maturity is not age defined and humans are a poisonous lot if left unchecked.
An example:
Dilly girls are sickening. Not down to earth women who struggle with issues that all women struggle with. I mean dilly, fake, flirty, cookie cutter, hair flipping, shallow bitches. Women like me struggle long and hard to shatter the myth of the stupid chick that lives for her man and nothing else and to see some stupid chick waiving her strengths just to say she has a boyfriend makes me dry heave.
There’s this silly chick who works for an almost defunct comedy show. She likes one of the comedians who, being an uptight white guy, can’t seem to reckon with a certain fierce sistah that commands his attention just sitting there watching the show. Sistah was startin to dig white guy, who didn’t seem at the time to be the jerk he appears to be on TV. So Sistah chills and likes White Guy at a respectful distance cause he’s married and Sistah ain’t playing that game cause no one ever really wins it. Sistah thinks “I’ll just get to know him and be a friend”.
But of course, for every woman who has the guts and self restraint not to fuck with a married man, there’s always some little bitch that sees her chance and takes it. One day Uptight Married White Guy sees the opportunity to blatantly flirt with Dilly Young Girl, but only when Sistah is within ear or eye shot. DYG is very confused and almost embarrassed by this the first 3 or 4 times as UMWG is obviously playing on her emotions to be a prick to the Sistah, who isn’t really sure why UMWG is even tripping in the first place, being that all she’s ever done is show up and be supportive and friendly.
It gets interesting when DYG finally sees the game and allows herself to start digging it. Only problem is that UMWG is STILL very aware of The Sistah and he’s basically trying to play one off the other. Sistah gets hip to the vibe and very coolly backs off. No drama or finger snapping or neck rolling. Just quietly seeing the situation and realizing you can only be used as far as you let yourself.
You would think that a savvy young chick would see this playing out and say to herself “This dude is just using me to try to make someone else feel jealous cause he can’t handle the fact that he’s an uptight white guy attracted to a sistah that’s got him all intrigued, plus the fact that he’s married. How fucked up is that?!”. Nope. Instead, she laps up the manipulative attentions of this bastid and actually gets off on the fact that he’s being a prick to the Sistah.
It gets even more sordid when UMWG starts hurrying away at the end of the shows and so does DYG. The Sistah sees that DYG not only hangs around waiting, but she’s giddy and singing like an idiot and generally making it REALLY OBVIOUS that she’s fucking around with a married man AND being a shallow, annoying cuntrag to another woman she has no reason to dislike. She actually started literally skipping down the street for a whole block like a 5 year old. Sistah sees this and wonders what it must be like to be so naïve and needy for attention that you would accept such an exploitive situation started with such foul intentions. It’s like “Honey, if he really liked you, Sistah wouldn’t have had to be part of the equation. If it was all about you (like if it was all about HIS WIFE), then he would’ve discretely made his move. But instead, he used Sistah’s now fading interest in him TO FORCE YOU INTO A BAD MOVE. Not to mention her showing no respect for his wife and her obvious immaturity. And in her mind, she thinks she won something. She is too young and stupid to see that not only did she show herself to be a conniving, easily manipulated little cunt, but she opened herself up for some serious karmic payback down the line.
So this forced Sistah to reconsider what she saw in UMWG in the first place. It’s really sad when you have admiration for someone and they show themselves to be such a fucked up person. It actually served to make her very proud that she had the maturity and self restraint to resist making a similar mistake. But it goes to show that people, especially the hopelessly insecure, will go to any lengths to get what they want, even if it shows them to be a rotten person, which only makes them more insecure. You would think a 42 year old man would have gone about it with more skill, but then again how much skill does it take to seduce a kid?
In the end, I met many quasi famous men who, with the exception of very few, are no more than insecure boys playing on the neurotic needs of chicks with no sense of themselves. Sistah came away from this experience with a touch of sadness that things may not get better as you get older. Even the best of us who see the handwriting on the wall and know the price you pay for ignoring it must be diligent in resisting the tricks of the immature.
An example:
Dilly girls are sickening. Not down to earth women who struggle with issues that all women struggle with. I mean dilly, fake, flirty, cookie cutter, hair flipping, shallow bitches. Women like me struggle long and hard to shatter the myth of the stupid chick that lives for her man and nothing else and to see some stupid chick waiving her strengths just to say she has a boyfriend makes me dry heave.
There’s this silly chick who works for an almost defunct comedy show. She likes one of the comedians who, being an uptight white guy, can’t seem to reckon with a certain fierce sistah that commands his attention just sitting there watching the show. Sistah was startin to dig white guy, who didn’t seem at the time to be the jerk he appears to be on TV. So Sistah chills and likes White Guy at a respectful distance cause he’s married and Sistah ain’t playing that game cause no one ever really wins it. Sistah thinks “I’ll just get to know him and be a friend”.
But of course, for every woman who has the guts and self restraint not to fuck with a married man, there’s always some little bitch that sees her chance and takes it. One day Uptight Married White Guy sees the opportunity to blatantly flirt with Dilly Young Girl, but only when Sistah is within ear or eye shot. DYG is very confused and almost embarrassed by this the first 3 or 4 times as UMWG is obviously playing on her emotions to be a prick to the Sistah, who isn’t really sure why UMWG is even tripping in the first place, being that all she’s ever done is show up and be supportive and friendly.
It gets interesting when DYG finally sees the game and allows herself to start digging it. Only problem is that UMWG is STILL very aware of The Sistah and he’s basically trying to play one off the other. Sistah gets hip to the vibe and very coolly backs off. No drama or finger snapping or neck rolling. Just quietly seeing the situation and realizing you can only be used as far as you let yourself.
You would think that a savvy young chick would see this playing out and say to herself “This dude is just using me to try to make someone else feel jealous cause he can’t handle the fact that he’s an uptight white guy attracted to a sistah that’s got him all intrigued, plus the fact that he’s married. How fucked up is that?!”. Nope. Instead, she laps up the manipulative attentions of this bastid and actually gets off on the fact that he’s being a prick to the Sistah.
It gets even more sordid when UMWG starts hurrying away at the end of the shows and so does DYG. The Sistah sees that DYG not only hangs around waiting, but she’s giddy and singing like an idiot and generally making it REALLY OBVIOUS that she’s fucking around with a married man AND being a shallow, annoying cuntrag to another woman she has no reason to dislike. She actually started literally skipping down the street for a whole block like a 5 year old. Sistah sees this and wonders what it must be like to be so naïve and needy for attention that you would accept such an exploitive situation started with such foul intentions. It’s like “Honey, if he really liked you, Sistah wouldn’t have had to be part of the equation. If it was all about you (like if it was all about HIS WIFE), then he would’ve discretely made his move. But instead, he used Sistah’s now fading interest in him TO FORCE YOU INTO A BAD MOVE. Not to mention her showing no respect for his wife and her obvious immaturity. And in her mind, she thinks she won something. She is too young and stupid to see that not only did she show herself to be a conniving, easily manipulated little cunt, but she opened herself up for some serious karmic payback down the line.
So this forced Sistah to reconsider what she saw in UMWG in the first place. It’s really sad when you have admiration for someone and they show themselves to be such a fucked up person. It actually served to make her very proud that she had the maturity and self restraint to resist making a similar mistake. But it goes to show that people, especially the hopelessly insecure, will go to any lengths to get what they want, even if it shows them to be a rotten person, which only makes them more insecure. You would think a 42 year old man would have gone about it with more skill, but then again how much skill does it take to seduce a kid?
In the end, I met many quasi famous men who, with the exception of very few, are no more than insecure boys playing on the neurotic needs of chicks with no sense of themselves. Sistah came away from this experience with a touch of sadness that things may not get better as you get older. Even the best of us who see the handwriting on the wall and know the price you pay for ignoring it must be diligent in resisting the tricks of the immature.
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I am SOOOOO ashamed that it took this long to write something on my blog.
And it's not like I have anything really cool to say either. I've been gone so long, I just wanted to see if it was still working..
And it's not like I have anything really cool to say either. I've been gone so long, I just wanted to see if it was still working..
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